Well this autumn is kind of A little “Autumnish” to me, a little harsh in the dawn(as i have to get up at 6 everyday almost relentlessly), little sweet in the morning as you get to check on ur new assignments, may be one or two mails from your friends and sundry and most importantly the bugreports (my proj. is going through a testing phase right now) or the less of it. Afternoons are agonising and skeptical depending on the day, most of the times you get buried in the codes and sometimes stuck in never ending meetings.
Evenings are a little breezy specially if im at the off. otherwise it becomes a kind of prologue to a chilly and lonely night.
Well compared to the other so called Autumns i would rank this still a little more high(surprisingly), though other autumns never had any dearth of amusement and luxuries but i guess it never gave me a time to think and work, otherwise this would have been another spectacular story of my reflexes, it actually works pretty good, well facing disaster sometimes nonetheless……I guess this autumn is special because i got to know that i can even connect with people in different other levels like never before……mind you im talking about those same set of people i have been dwelling all my life like my dear friends and family and not new.
Nowadays its kind of a season for appraisals, filling and shaping up those “key to your mega city dreams”, forms, which on the other hand to me is blowing of ones trumpet of the first order. Glorifying yourself as much as possible to get a little more shine than the other one, It actually reminds me of our daily checking of polished shoes, standing in a straight line in my school……………..god I have to stop this metaphors -its almost smelling like Sidhuisms.
Anyway my point was, coming to this Fall Autumn I actually got a connection which even if we donot know, how much ever you love or being loved is kind o true. We all have a appraisal mechanism in ourselves. Depending on the time, age and your social and level of responsibility we tend to appraise people around.
So a friend of yours would appraise you probably when you are just his/her friend, when you are somewhere in your high school or college and when you are working, this goes not only with your friends but with your parents and relatives too.
So even if it sounds scary its true that WE need to prove ourselves to be US all the time to people who actually love us in some cases presumably unconditionally(Sounds really complex and funny) to be loved as much till that next appraisal.
